#bitternessatitspeak

THAT SAME NIGHT, he told me he still loves me. THAT SAME NIGHT he made me feel like nothing had ever changed. But i reallllllyyyy can't comprehend why on that same night he fooooooled around with her.

All this time, he was telling me, he misses me and he loves me. There was even once when he called up to me just to sing me songs of love like he used to when we were still together. He tells me nobody, up until then, had ever made him feel that same heart beat he felt with me.

THAT NIGHT, i really admired his courage to tell me his feelings,though that was just over the phone. He even asked me if I feel the same. I told him I don't love him anymore and that im inlove with somebody else right now (when in reality, i still think of him,and yeah, he knows me well). He told me he still loves me and that he hadnt found somebody new yet (when in reality he was flirting with somebody else in that party). Then a friend told me something happened exactly that same night. SOOOO, was he merely checking if I still care? Or maybe okay, he was just drunk.

I do understand that I am soooo not in the position to rant about this, especially that we don't have anything between us and we are already living our separate lives now. We were just that typical ex-lovers who turned *insertproperadjective* after everything. But what does he think he was doing? Does he know what loving someone realllyyyyy means? Obviously, he does not. It made me wonder, did he realllllyyy ever love me?

To you:

I don't really know how to let you know how disappointed I was. I wanted to confirm everything but I find no need to do so. Besides, i don't want to talk to you anymore, especially that I might just hear lies from you. You know exactly when to check me up. You always make me feel like hoping for 'us' in the future. Many times, I see myself turning away from what I have become now and coming back to you and to what I used to be. Well, thank God, for he knows exactly when to wake me up. ANNNND, i don't trust you anymore.

To that girl, that same girl, #thatbitch:

Thoughts of you and your being a hardcore flirt makes me wanna punch you in the face. you seem to be liking him so much huh. at least he's so free now. goodluck. just try and try until you die. seriously, until you die.

ps. karma comes back 10x

To myself:

Let it goooo. KEEP CALM AND MOVE ON.

#bitternessatitspeak